I'm A Mother?!

What it is like being a mother? At the age of 19, am I ready to become a mother? It may be that in the most shadowy portion of my mind I was drawing a comparison between my present situation with my youth then. I know that a big responsibility awaits me ahead. At a very young age, I am not sure if I can make it. This burden is like darkness creeping in my mind and soul, making me weak and helpless. And if there is misery, there is always doubt and this uncertainty is knocking me down. But later on, I've realized that a burden is carried more easily if I take pride in doing so. It is true that motherhood is the hardest job, yet I'm happy to become one and I should value this blessing though it takes just much courage to live for this good cause. It is my destiny, and having a child is the most enchanted feeling a woman could ever have.
Bearing a child is not an easy task. There's a life within you waiting to be nourished, to be love and cared. Pregnancy was the hardest experience I ever had. There are lot of emotions and encumbrances to bare. Hardship such as morning sickness, headache, muscle pain and not to mention all the mice emotions in which I never had a chance to understand. It get mad most of the time. I even cried for no reason at all. I wanted to eat something that I don't know but on the contrary I always feel enlightened whenever I touched my tummy and said "Baby, you'll going to be a healthy and smart little child." If being pregnant is not easy much worst is giving birth, it's like placing half of your life in the grave. When it is about time for my baby to face its new world, I have no other choice but to experience the most excruciating pain in the world, but that pain has all vanished that moment I heard my new born cried, it is the most delightful melody I have ever heard. I've already seen the fruit of all my hardship and sacrifices. My baby that have changed my entire life. My baby was my treasure, my purpose of living.
And now that I am a mother, what's next? I was so worried then, fearing that I may not be able to fulfill all the responsibilities of being a good parent, by my mother said that worrying is unchristian. I must be strong, have faith in God and believe in my self. She also reminds me that the greatest translation of the Bible was that of a mother's version of true hardship, compassion, understanding and unconditional love to her child. And so be it. How stupid am I not to count my commonest blessings which is my mother and now that I am one, I fell so grateful of her presence together with my baby, my life is so complete, I am not living in the bed of roses but my life is complete.
Though it is hard to leave my youth behind and toss the coin to its other side, its all worth it. The true essence of womanhood is being a mother. I have to cope up with this very different sittuation but all the things that I have experienced made mo more matured. I must be strong because I will not only decide for my self from now on but also for this little one that is now under my strength. I must be wise not for my own good cause. I must be everything positive that I can, leave all my worries and fears behind because a mature person have faith in herself which is fortified by faith in God. With all these moral boosters, is there any reason for me not to become a good mother?